Have you ever felt so trapped that you cry every night? Have you ever been so confused That your mind wont stop going, even when you sleep? Have you ever wanted something so bad that its all you think about? have you ever been unsure about that thing you want, in such away that you convice yourself that you don't really want it? Has your heart ever been in so much pain that you just want it to end.
This is what i have been going through, as best as I can put it. And I'm going through it all in secret, because I'm unsure of how to bring it to my loved one's attention. How do you tell those you love that you are begining to think you are not the girl/boy they knew...That your gender is wrong. I try so hard to be happy...I really do wany it, but wanting is not enough anymore.
Imagine living someone else's life, with no controll of how things progress. You have no controll because your lifes way has been set in stone, because its not your desicion. Nor has it ever been. That is how I feel I guess.
I just want to be sure of myself again...I want to be able to live proudly as myself.
<3 HUGS. I do understand. You aren't alone. If you ever need someone to vent to in person, just look me up! Wishing you the very best.
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